Tired

OK, I know it is Thanksgiving and I should be thankful.  And I really am.  I have good parents who have always loved me and sacrificed for me.  I have a sister who has some insights  that amaze me and very good at listening for the voice of God.  I have an awesomely sweet and beautiful niece.  I am richly blessed with incredible friends.  I have a very good job.  I have a roof over my head...well at least until the end of the month.

We have been looking for a house for a month and haven't found the "right" one...haven't found the one that we feel God has for us.  We are in the midst of sorting and packing which is hard and depressing work.

So with that said - I'm wearing my feelings on my sleeve.  So I'm tired.  Tired of worrying, tired of looking, tired of being anxious, tired of stress, tired of criticism (or what I perceive to be critisicm), tired of trying to please most people most of the time.  It then comes back to I'm tired of not trusting God, of not being patient with His timing, of not listening to His voice, of questioning His ways.  Which brings me back to being thankful - thankful for His patience with me, thankful thankful that He loves me anway...